This is Too Much Some Days

I have been busy. One of my kids was in the hospital for ten days and I have been a wreck. But Sunday night, my son Anthony contacted me on MSN. We chatted for an hour or so. He asked why I haven't talked to him and he re-added me on Facebook. I told him what CAS had said about me "beating him" and he said never told them that. He said, "LIES. IT IS ALL LIES". Then he said he "wants to see me so much." He begged me to be online the next night and I said I would try. That was it. He then copied some posts off my Facebook and blocked me. I got an email from my lawyer yesterday. It was a fax from my ex's lawyer in response to the request to see my son dated November 2nd, 2010. Yesterday was the 19th! Anyway, they were told not to say I am mentally ill anymore as it was proven I am not so now my ex's lawyer said: "We feel that Ms. ******* is not fit to be alone with her son and must have access supervised by the Children's Aid Society. The reason for this is she has recently had inappropriate conversations with her son and she makes him feel very uncomfortable." I am crying as I write this. I screamed, I cried and I lost it yesterday. Are they SERIOUS?! And that my 12 year old son took things off my Facebook page to show the lawyers?! REALLY? How is what I say to my friends inappropriate? I can't even have a life now. I am constantly under a microscope and it feels like it would be so easy to just give up.