The Children's Aid BS

Yes, this blog is still a bit of a mess. I have had exams (which I have nearly failed) and papers to write (which I have done very well on) and life still goes on normally as well. So I have been exhausted.

So, the Child Protection Worker (CPW) found no evidence of abuse. But the allegations that were made were horrifying and it took about two weeks before she looked into my entire file and my life and verified things. This CPW, Linda seemed to believe Carl and Sandra at first. So, what did she ask Janelle at the interview? I know exactly what the CPW asked her because she asked her in front of me, to guage her reaction as well as mine!

*How often do your parents hit you? (Not, "Do your parents hit you?")
*Are you scared of your mom and Daniel?
*Has anyone "touched" you?
*Are you happy?

Those are some of the questions. It amounts to this: he and Sandra alleged that Daniel and I hit the kids and each other. That we are heavy drinkers, drug abusers and smoke pot around the kids. I apparently never buy food, etc and do not pay my bills. I was accused so many times of mental illness and finally I had to ask her how many people graduated in social work and got accepted to an undergrad Psych program in University while actively "severely mentally ill"? Besides, CAS has my damned medical records!

So the case was closed. I was advised to get a lawyer. It took me six weeks, but I finally got one on retainer. Ugh, ever expensive!

We went to court once. It was held over. We went again yesterday. How do I feel about it? Let's just say that I have absolutely no f***ing faith in this. Why not? Because I already have a court order stating my son is to be in my custody. The judge was cranky yesterday and no one, I mean NO ONE thought to say I should be able to at least see my son. I am so sick and tired of allegations of mental illness. I know why he is accusing me of mental illness. That CPW, Linda? She told him that unless he could say that something was terribly wrong with me personally, he would not get full custody with a no access order against me. So it is now up to me to disprove the allegations.

So, where do I go now?! There is no one in the world who will help me. And I feel very negative about this whole thing.